Thursday, December 10, 2015

Social Media Break: The End

I'm going to end this social media break experiment. This break lasted maybe two weeks. I didn't blog the last week because I didn't feel like I really had anything to say. It was fun being untethered to social media, but other things were making me a bit moody and I was beginning to feel disconnected to others. Being on a social media break was supposed to have the opposite effect. I have learned that I don't have to seek validation in others. So, all was not completely lost. I also rediscovered my old blogging voice. It's not quite exactly my old blogging voice, but I think it is close enough to my old self-deprecating persona. Yes, I shouldn't be so self-deprecating. It's a defense mechanism habit that is hella tough to break.

Anywho, to the random viewership that I may have received in the past two weeks. Talking this out helped. As for my other issues, well, I will have to deal with that at another time. Laters.

Friday, December 4, 2015

Social Media Break, Day Eight

This post is hella late. I was busy taking care of something last night, and I completely forgot to blog. Daily blogging/journaling hasn't quite become a habit just yet.

A friend of mine asked me to blog for her geek site again. I've done a couple of articles about my history with Comic-Con and what to expect at Comic-Con on her site a few months ago. I lost a little steam immediately after the second article, but being the cool friend that she is, she still has the door open for me to continue to write for her.

I'm probably not going to move this series (or cross-post this series) to that site as this doesn't really fit the theme of World of Geek Stuff, but hopefully I can write about some of my other geek interests on that site again. I think the key for me is to not have it feel like a chore. I need writing or blogging to feel like some sort of creative expression.

In other news, I'm still hooked on that Adele song. I need to start listening to other music soon, because this is approaching near ridiculous levels. lol.

I think that's it for now. I'm either going to blog more tonight, or the frequency of my blogging is going to decrease. I haven't decided yet. See y'all later.

Wednesday, December 2, 2015

Social Media Break, Day Seven

So, it has been a week since I tried this little Social Media Break experiment. What have I learned?

I've learned that I can totally justify checking some notifications all in the name of not wanting to look like a jerk to people that I know.

I've learned that I still am hella wordy. I don't think I'm verbose because verbosity means that I actually some sort of command of vocabulary. I just like to talk.

I've learned that I am hella behind on some pop culture stuff, like Adele's new single, Hello.

I've learned that I looooooove Adele new single, Hello.

I've learned that I loooooove covers of Adele's new single, Hello, particularly the cover by Sabrina Carpenter. I can't get enough of this song.

I've learned that I don't really miss social media that much, particularly my big three of social media: Facebook, Twitter, Google+.

I think this social media break will be an annual tradition for me, provided that I remember to do so. I also have to see if I can actually last until Christmas or Christmas Eve before I start planning future breaks.

I'm sure that there is a lot more things that I've learned in the past week. I am definitely overlooking somethings. I might also be subconsciously leaving out a few things.

This isn't something that I've learned in the past week, but this is something that I need to write out there: I still have my issues, particularly my issues with being needy and looking for self-worth in other people's opinions. I don't know if that makes sense. N says it much better than I could. This ties into a deeper issue of not actually truly believing that people like me for who I am. That issue then goes into a new found discovery that I know that I'm not always completely honest with myself. I know that I can't trust myself, and if I can't trust myself, then I don't know if I can trust my normal everyday actions. I don't think I'm a "phony" in an sense (shout out to Holden Caulfield), but I don't know if my normal actions are really what I think and feel or if it is what I think people expect me to do, or the type of action that I believe is "socially acceptable."

Woah. That got semi-deep all of a sudden. I don't know if this blog is ready for that. Alls I know is, cancel your subscription cause you don't want none of these issues. hahaha. I can't take any credit for that saying. I heard it on a radio show about 15 years ago.

Well, that's going to be it for today. I really am okay. Writing has been therapeutic in a way. I haven't regularly blogged since I blogged my way through the Insanity Workout program. The tale end of those posts can be seen here and here. The beginning of that series can still be found on my old LiveJournal. I really do miss writing blogs. I just need to figure out how I want to blog moving forward.

See y'all later.

Tuesday, December 1, 2015

Social Media Break, Day Six

It is a good thing that I'm attempting to take a break from social media because I have discovered my new emo song: Hello by Adele.

Yes, I am a bit behind in the times. Hell, people should be happy that I've discovered a new song from this year that isn't Taylor Swift. lol

I think the version of this song that I really like is the cover by Sabrina Carpenter of Girl Meets World fame:

Sabrina Carpenter sings her heart out on this version. She matches Adele's emotion from the original, at least from what I can tell. I'm no music expert. I'm just a guy who can appreciate someone pouring out their emotion in song.

Anywho, it really is a good thing that I'm taking a social media break because I would be sooooo plastering my Facebook feed with this song and other covers. Hell, I probably would have posted a new cover a day until I couldn't find any more of them, or until my friends all told me to shut the hell up. lol.

Gawd, this song is so haunting. I mean, the lyrics in a way don't make a whole lot sense. Why would you want to talk to someone when you've caused them a lot of pain and you've seen them finally move on? Is this just a desire to see if the other person still feels something for you? I don't get it. Maybe I'm not really supposed to get it, and it really doesn't matter. I mean, the voice and the way the song is sung is just soooo good. This song channels my inner 13 yo girl. No, I am not a 13 yo girl, though my friends would totally say that I act like one. lol

Well, that's it for today. I think I'm getting a bit better with this desire to always be checking social media. It's a bit tough when you want to share something, like a new found emo song and the million covers out there that just need to be shared, but I guess that's what this blog is for, right? That's my story and I'm sticking to it.

Social Media Break, Day Five

I forgot to blog last night. Maybe that's why I'm so gorram early. You know, health professionals all say that you have to get proper amounts of sleep and all that, but when you have "trained" your body to survive off 5-6 hours of sleep, do you know what typically happens? Your body decides that you want to now wake up after about 5-6 hours of sleep. This is bollocks, man. Absolutely bollocks. I should be sleeping for at least another hour and a half before I finally decided to get up at 4am. Maybe the scotch last night wasn't such a good idea.

I honestly think that Facebook knows when people are trying to take a break from their site. Randomly yesterday, I get an email that one of my friends had changed their status. I immediately thought that I had been tagged in it, so I messaged my friend to see what was the message. Nope. I wasn't tagged in any message. Effing Facebook, man. It's like their algorithm realizes that an account has gone dark for 5 whole days and it tries to get you back. That is just super shady. I don't know if that is exactly what happened, but I don't think people necessarily get emails of their friends changing their status when you aren't tagged in the stats. Curiouser and curiouser.

I survived the work day without having to succumb to going on social media. Yay, me. Let's see if I can survive a second work day. One day at a time, right? Why do I sound like I'm in some sort of 12 step program. This isn't like a real addiction, is it? I mean, social media is just a habit forming diversion to our every day normal lives, right?

I was reminded again yesterday that everyone has a different meaning to the word "interesting" based on their own life experiences. A friend of mine was lamenting on Monday that her life and weekend was boring and that nothing interesting really happens in her life. And yet, when we talk about all of the different things that have happened, she always has experiences that I consider as interesting and fascinating. I guess, I'm far more on the boring scale of life, which is fairly true. Adventure. Excitement. A Jedi craves not these things. Okay, that was seriously the dorkiest thing I have ever done, and I have done a lot of dorky things. lol

Anyways, that's it for now. I'll try to remember to blog again tonight. I don't know how many more mundane things I can talk about. See y'all later.

Sunday, November 29, 2015

Social Media Break, Day Four

Full disclosure early on: I had to go to Google Plus quickly today to turn off a Community notification. Getting email notifications is a quick way back to perusing social media sites regularly again.

Other that that quick peek into social media, I felt pretty good today. The urge to go and check what other people are posting does diminish over times. I didn't realize how much checking social media is like any other addiction. Going by my old smoking addiction, the toughest part is always the beginning. If I can get legitimately get through a week, then I'll be okay and the next three weeks should be a breeze. That's my story and I'm sticking to it.

And speaking of addictions and new habits, Monday is the start of a new week and the end of the Thanksgiving weekend. A friend and I are going to start to hold each other accountable on our new diets. She and I had a weight loss challenge last year, and because of that competition, we both lost a ton of weight. Holding each other accountable should be great for us again this year. My biggest challenge is always sugar and chocolates. I have a sweet tooth, particularly for sugar. Last year, I cut out sugar for about a month and that helped to kick start a 30 pound weight loss. If I can do that until Christmas Eve, then I'll be golden. That's not really all that long from now, right? Right?

Monday is going to be a big test for my social media break, particularly during those work down times. I think I can get through those periods. I try not to check Facebook on my work computer a lot anyway. The bigger test will be trying to save articles and stuff on Google Plus for me to check later. I wonder if that counts as checking social media if all I'm doing is stashing an article away somewhere. That might not count as going on social media. This might be easier than I thought. Those sound like some famous last words on a completely non-binding pledge. lol

Looks like this is going to be a short entry today. I wonder if this is a trend or if this is just a by-product of a very uneventful Sunday. I guess we'll find out tomorrow. See y'all later.

Saturday, November 28, 2015

Social Media Break, Day Three

I'm changing the title of this series to Social Media Break rather than keeping with Social Media Free. I really am more on a Social Media Break than attempting to be free of Social Media, so this title makes better sense in my opinion.

I'm going to try to keep today's entry short because I'm full, I'm tired and I might be a little buzzed. Remember kids, tryptophan, insulin crash and alcohol do not mix. Not even a new episode of Doctor Who can keep me up tonight.

Today was generally not a good day. To borrow a quote for George R. R. Martin's Not A Blog on LiveJournal, life is miserable and full of pain. UCLA lost today to USC in football. It's time like this that I wonder why I am a sports fan at all. It has gotten to the point where most of the time that I watch any of my teams play, I'm more hoping that they don't lose than I am hoping that they win. When my team wins, I feel more of a temporary relief than anything else. Sure, there are times when I feel immense joy, like when my Giants won the World Series for the first time since they moved to San Francisco. Actually, that one was both immense relief and immense joy. Regardless, the moral is that I experience less joy as each year passes. I need to rediscover the love for sports. I also need to let go of that sadness when my team loses. That is one of the worst superficial emotional pains out there.

The bright side of taking a social media break during this time period is that I cannot see what the other fan base is saying. That helps ease the pain a little. The scotch is helping with the rest of that pain. lol. My Facebook feed is going to be loving the fact that I'm taking a break right now, cause I could totally see another round of drunken video postings coming up, if this deadly trio of typtophan, alcohol and insulin crash doesn't knock me out first.

In other news, I've held out on buying a Nexus 9 so far. My resolve is holding strong. I needed some help from Marie-Reine and Nicole, but so far so good. That is such a good deal, but it is a piece of technology that would hold no use for me other than being a semi-dedicated Chromecast remote and a possible vehicle for a secondary Clash of Clans account. The fact that I'm even thinking of getting a tablet for that Clash of Clans thing is reason enough why I shouldn't get it. It is such a frivolous piece of tech that I don't need. But, a discount of $200 is just soooooo good. I'll think more about this later.

In a bit of blog news, I was surprised to see that my last two blog posts have received some views out there. I mean, who the hell is reading this. lol. I didn't think I had an audience out there, but my Blogger stats say that it's being viewed out there. That's just crazy. I swear I'm not this insane, although I really might just be this boring. haha

And I'm now laughing at my own bad jokes. I think that is a sign that I need to sign off for the night. My last day of my hella long weekend ends tomorrow. I really should go out and enjoy the day tomorrow. Good thing I was able to finish Jessica Jones this weekend. That show was hella good. I highly recommend it.

Well, that's it for now. I'll try to shoehorn a blog post tomorrow. Laters.